Thursday, 19 February 2015

Thank you and Life update

Today is definitely going to be a different kind of post. Instead of a sharing a recipe, sharing a toddler activity, or a meal plan, I'm going to get personal. 

I like to keep things real every now and again and to share a bit of myself, instead of just chatting about food, as interesting and wonderful as food is. 

Before getting on with a long chatty post, I just want to say: 
This blog, and community, friendships, and connections that I have made due to it have been so supporting and uplifting while my family has been going through some tough times recently. 

Thank YOU! Thank you for dropping by, thank you for commenting, and thank you for your interactions! It has been such a blessing to have other folks to connect to lately even if I feel that my blogging has been slacking and less organised than normal. 

Which brings me to my next point- I have been neglecting doing a few bloggy things that I love. Like commenting and visiting your blogs! I'm so sorry and am working hard to catch up and get back to the swing of things, but: 

Life has been a bit challenging lately, to say the least. So here's what's been up:

At the beginning of the year, we found my father in law has cancer. Not the treatable type where you have the possibility of remission, but the type that has spread everywhere. Basically life expectancy is well, hopefully to the end of the year. 

This has been rough. I don't even know how to explain it, but as you can imagine, we're struggling with it. I have also been very close with him, and aside from trying to help my husband through this, I'm pretty devastated myself. Luckily, he is getting chemo so there is some hope we could celebrate one more birthday. 

It's been about a month and a half since we found out and the news is starting to feel ... I don't know, life is becoming normal again. We are trying to enjoy our time together, visit often, and just squeeze in as many beautiful memories as possible. I'm also being a total paparazzi and am making obnoxious quantities of cell phone shots in poorly lit rooms. It's the memories that are important, blurry or not, right? ;) 

After we got the news regarding my father in law, my grandparents came to visit. It was such a relief to be in their presence, to show them our house (construction site or not!) and to just be together. 

Eek! Blurry, pixelated photo! Apologies! 

I realised, however, after speaking to my grandfather for about 10 minutes that something wasn't quite right. After some questions, I learned he has Alzheimer's. Um, say what? 

Being an expat makes that pretty tough to stomach. I guess my family didn't want to worry me, but it's of course impossible if we're together. It's scary. I can't imagine knowing that your memory is fading, to know that everything will just ... go away. It's not too bad yet, and mostly he 'just' gets confused with simple things like what they are going to do, we had the same conversation many times, even during the same day, he 'just' gets confused easily.

I know though that it's just going to get worse. That's the reality. One day, he'll forget how to eat. The same man that just a few years ago, helped my husband to do maintenance on my mother's car, the same man that fixed my mother's roof just a year ago. 

And then, a few weeks later, we found out one of my husband's aunts has throat cancer. 

So that's been happening, and is why I have been struggling to keep up with blogging to some extent. 

I've been trying to keep with posting as it's been such a wonderful distraction and a way to keep my normal.  

In spite of all of everything we are dealing with, the Husband and I are trying to keep it together and focus on the positive like being together. There's still time to enjoy with all of the lovely people in our lives and that's precious!

Mr. Toddler still brings so much joy to our lives, and we are generally grateful for his awesome. 

Speaking of kids, we want another one. As in yesterday, but given that the closest thing to being done on our house is still the caravan, that's not really going to happen too soon... maybe. It's a conversation we will be revisiting shortly ;)  

We've definitely realised how short life can be. We've realised how important it is to be thankful for what you have. We've realised how grateful we are for all of those little moments. 

Like Mr. Toddler getting totally excited for cooking egg muffins! That he did (mostly) on his own! 

Or watching him shovel smoked salmon into his mouth. He first placed it into the muffin tin for our muffins. And then preceded to eat it all. Hilarious! Until we ran out of salmon. 

I'm also trying to enjoy the fact that I get asked for id when I buy wine here. By the way, you only get asked if you look under eighteen. I guess I should be grateful for looking like a 17 year old. 

All in all, we're taking life one day at a time. We're working hard to get our home finished as quickly as possible and we are really trying to enjoy those precious moments together. It's hard, but we know life will calm down again. Hopefully sooner rather than later! 

Thank you so much for stopping by!